It is seriously killing me that I haven't been able to finish this book yet.  Who doesn't love a good tear jerking story?  I'm not really sure why I love reading sad stories such as this one.  Maybe it's because it makes my life seem half way normal and not nearly as bad as it hypothetically could be.  Reading a book  gives me a quick release, a way to escape my own life and whatever I decide to be worrying about today.  For the moment, I am taken away into someone else's life, not really even having to think about my own.  And if I am, its usually because I can relate to the person in the book, assuring me that I'm not alone and what I feel is totally normal.

An easy, healthy, totally acceptable escape... that really is all I need sometimes.

ok... joke is over.

This 85 degree weather in the not so beautiful New Jersey really threw me off today.  I'll wake up tomorrow to rain and chilly breezes and not want to get out of bed.  For some reason, the closer I get to summer and graduation the slower time passes.

All i want to do is throw up some sea salt hair, take a nap outside, and squish some sand between my toes.  I really don't think thats too much to ask.

Mother nature... you officially suck.

I've got this new desire...

to not care whatsoever about what people think of me.  I'm sick of second guessing myself and constantly having to monitor if what I'm doing is acceptable.  I'll be realistic this is just a goal because in reality I will never not care what everyone thinks of me, but it is DEFINITELY time for a change and its certainly long overdue.

So, that was just a little update on my life... thanks for listening.